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Hello, hello Dreamwidth friends!
A long time ago I made this account to try and find a better avenue for fandom instead of tumblr, but I ended up never using it. Now that the tumblr purge has happened, I've been spending the majority of my time on fandom.ink on mastodon, and they talk great things about you so I thought 'Hey, why not try this out one more time?' I'm gonna be changing my username once I get paid, but for now I can at least post an introduction!
My name's Annastasia, but you can call me Arisa/Risa. I'm a mixed race black woman, 25 years old, and proudly hella disabled with Spinal Muscular Atrophy. I'm an aspiring Lolita, a practicing witch, and a self-identifying punk and baby-anarchist. Currently, I'm in my last semester of undergrad for Creative Writing. I write mainly YA fiction and Creative Non-Fiction, and I've been writing (and rewriting ^^;) a YA novel since I was 15, called Cynical Chaos. I'm gonna be using this blog for longer thoughts about the things I post on masto, such as my life, the ongoing process with my novel, losing my mind over fictional characters and/or fandom meta, and witch musings. My biggest current fandoms are: BTS and the Bangtan Universe, My Hero Academia, Aggretsuko, Stardew Valley, the Undertale Universe, Pokemon, and--due to the rekindling of the upcoming release--Kingdom Hearts. Fandoms that I'm no longer active in but will literally always be my favorite to talk about are: Sonic (as you can guess from my avvie ;p), Jak and Daxter, Yu Yu Hakusho, Sailor Moon, and Final Fantasy VI and onwards (but especially VI).
I'm also really into the pop-punk and metalcore scene, so if you're into bands like Thrice, A Day to Remember, Underoath, Paramore, The Story so Far, and All Time Low, hit me up and we can chat over some jams!
Anyway, that's all for me for now. I hope you find something around here you like and stick around! I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you ^^ See you soon!
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Sticky: Finally, an introduction!
Jan. 20th, 2019 02:20 pm
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I think this is the first time you're ever gonna catch me lowkey disagreeing with a BTS concept
I say lowkey 'cause this isn't something you can literally "disagree" on? This is fuckin Artist Culture in a nutshell. All of us feel like this at some point and time. I don't deny that. Maybe disagree isn't the right word. But I really want people to know that that fear isn't rooted in anything real. If you are an artist feeling like you've lost all passion for something you love, and you feel hopeless and lost, I want you to hear me: you cannot lose anything that is woven into your DNA. It is yours forever, whenever. Right now, for whatever reason, you are simply disconnected, or you just need rest (GOD I cannot stress rest enough in artistry). Whatever the reason, I can promise you with certainty that one day, the fog will lift, you'll find your way back, and it will be waiting right where you left it like nothing happened.
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I say lowkey 'cause this isn't something you can literally "disagree" on? This is fuckin Artist Culture in a nutshell. All of us feel like this at some point and time. I don't deny that. Maybe disagree isn't the right word. But I really want people to know that that fear isn't rooted in anything real. If you are an artist feeling like you've lost all passion for something you love, and you feel hopeless and lost, I want you to hear me: you cannot lose anything that is woven into your DNA. It is yours forever, whenever. Right now, for whatever reason, you are simply disconnected, or you just need rest (GOD I cannot stress rest enough in artistry). Whatever the reason, I can promise you with certainty that one day, the fog will lift, you'll find your way back, and it will be waiting right where you left it like nothing happened.
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Sep. 30th, 2019 04:13 amNot how Beyoncé's love song to her fans ("XO") and her bittersweet love song to music ("Love Drought") sound and feel 100% more genuine and organic than her love/reconciliation song for Jay-Z ("All Night Long"), but lemme not ☕👀
Hello friends! It's been a minute, but I'm here with a new media analysis! This time about music. Melanie Martinez's new album + movie came out recently and I had a lot of Thoughts about it.
A quick heads up: this post is going to be discussing a myriad of issues, such as eating disorders (bulimia specifically), rape and sexual assault, victim blaming, abusive behaviors like gaslighting and guilt tripping, and body shaming. If these things trigger you, you may want to sit this one out.
That being said, let's get into it.
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A quick heads up: this post is going to be discussing a myriad of issues, such as eating disorders (bulimia specifically), rape and sexual assault, victim blaming, abusive behaviors like gaslighting and guilt tripping, and body shaming. If these things trigger you, you may want to sit this one out.
That being said, let's get into it.
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New Writing Dreamwidth!
Jul. 6th, 2019 07:20 pmWhat's poppin' friends????
As you can probably see, I finally did it! I renamed this blog and created a new one just for my writing! It's https://chaoticcliche.dreamwidth.org/ . If you'd like to keep up with my writing, or see some of my work for the first time, please follow me over there as well!
This blog will remain the same, with personal rants and fandom meta. I'm not going anywhere, just adding more of me ;) Hope to see some of you there!
As you can probably see, I finally did it! I renamed this blog and created a new one just for my writing! It's https://chaoticcliche.dreamwidth.org/ . If you'd like to keep up with my writing, or see some of my work for the first time, please follow me over there as well!
This blog will remain the same, with personal rants and fandom meta. I'm not going anywhere, just adding more of me ;) Hope to see some of you there!
So, I binge-watched the anime Angels of Death last week, and it's pretty safe to say I've become thoroughly obsessed with it.
If you've never heard of it, Angels of Death, or Satsuriku no Tenshi, is the anime adaption of the indie horror game of the same name, released in 2016. I never heard of it until I saw the release trailer for the anime last summer, but apparently it was SUPER popular in Japan. The story follows Rachel Gardner, a stoic teenage girl who has a strange, intense desire to die. She finds herself trapped in a strange building where she meets a serial killer named Zack, who, as you can probably guess, tries to kill her as soon as they meet. Upon realizing she *wants* to die, and therefore wouldn't give him the thrill he craves, he instead makes a deal with her: She helps him escape the building and all the deranged murderers who control the other floors, and he'll grant her wish and kill her once they're outside.
The anime trailer hooked me immediately. I haven't totally divulged here yet about my favorite tropes and things in media, besides maybe what you've caught on to if you've been paying attention to my writing updates, but I LOVE edgy shit. I missed the train that left in 2007 that was supposed to transport me out of my emo phase. You give me anything that deals with monsters, villains, death, angsty violent characters, or anything otherwise dealing with what's usually undesirable in society, and you've got my attention. It was a bonus that Zack had the same VA as Bakugo from My Hero Academia (who is my favorite—again, edgy angry boy). You're gonna give me a full-blown apeshit Bakugo????? With a kickass scythe??? Sold. It took me awhile to get started, as most things do, but once I finished it, it was exactly what I wanted and more. I can't say that for many shows anymore. It's the only new anime I've actively searched fanfiction for in YEARS. I'm that desperate to stay in the world.
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If you've never heard of it, Angels of Death, or Satsuriku no Tenshi, is the anime adaption of the indie horror game of the same name, released in 2016. I never heard of it until I saw the release trailer for the anime last summer, but apparently it was SUPER popular in Japan. The story follows Rachel Gardner, a stoic teenage girl who has a strange, intense desire to die. She finds herself trapped in a strange building where she meets a serial killer named Zack, who, as you can probably guess, tries to kill her as soon as they meet. Upon realizing she *wants* to die, and therefore wouldn't give him the thrill he craves, he instead makes a deal with her: She helps him escape the building and all the deranged murderers who control the other floors, and he'll grant her wish and kill her once they're outside.
The anime trailer hooked me immediately. I haven't totally divulged here yet about my favorite tropes and things in media, besides maybe what you've caught on to if you've been paying attention to my writing updates, but I LOVE edgy shit. I missed the train that left in 2007 that was supposed to transport me out of my emo phase. You give me anything that deals with monsters, villains, death, angsty violent characters, or anything otherwise dealing with what's usually undesirable in society, and you've got my attention. It was a bonus that Zack had the same VA as Bakugo from My Hero Academia (who is my favorite—again, edgy angry boy). You're gonna give me a full-blown apeshit Bakugo????? With a kickass scythe??? Sold. It took me awhile to get started, as most things do, but once I finished it, it was exactly what I wanted and more. I can't say that for many shows anymore. It's the only new anime I've actively searched fanfiction for in YEARS. I'm that desperate to stay in the world.
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Another Moodboard =D
Jun. 15th, 2019 05:50 pmHey, Hey I'm having way too much fun with these :p I don't know why it took me so long to make this. This time it’s for my main WIP, the love of my life, my beautiful kids, Cynical Chaos!
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Jun. 3rd, 2019 01:53 amHey!! I wanted to share this here too!! I made a moodboard for my new Siren WIP! =D (under the cut)
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OH! Also!!!
May. 23rd, 2019 07:53 pmI started posting some of my writing! I have a specific tumblr for it, and an ao3 account! I posted three poems so far, and you can check them out here:
"Julia"
"I Need You"
"To Whom It May Concern"
I will be posting more things there, including stuff about my book (and eventually some of the actual book if all things go well), as well as here like always. Looking forward to sharing with you all! ^_^
(PS: I made an actual writing avvie for myself now! Doesn't it kick ass??? =D)
"Julia"
"I Need You"
"To Whom It May Concern"
I will be posting more things there, including stuff about my book (and eventually some of the actual book if all things go well), as well as here like always. Looking forward to sharing with you all! ^_^
(PS: I made an actual writing avvie for myself now! Doesn't it kick ass??? =D)
Sick ramblings
May. 23rd, 2019 06:19 pmIt's always so interesting to feel myself slowly come out of the fog of being sick. I feel like a lot of the time, since it's usually a pretty stressful event for me (especially when I'm admitted >_>), I'm always lowkey disassociating through it? Like I think that's a lot of being sick in general, but it's almost like illness creates a liminal space and time just kinda stops or slows to a crawl, and life just seems off? But as I'm starting to feel better, it's like I can literally feel myself stepping back into normal reality. With each passing day, I feel more and more like I did right before I got sick. Like the living epitome of saying, "Cool. anyway,". Almost like it never even happened.
Which is great because dammit good things were happening in my life before this, I felt good and excited for the future, and I'm reclaiming all that as my own again thanks!!!
It's good to be back.
Which is great because dammit good things were happening in my life before this, I felt good and excited for the future, and I'm reclaiming all that as my own again thanks!!!
It's good to be back.
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May. 20th, 2019 08:07 pmSo I'm sorry that I haven't posted or been around lately, but one minute I'm trying to finish my last finals and then the next I'm admitted in the hospital =(
I got out two Saturdays ago, so I'm okay now, but I was in there for three days. Just an infection gone out of control super fast. I've been super exhausted since then and just really brain foggy, so it's been kinda hard to like.....be a person lol. I'm feeling really good right now though! So I wanted to say thank you for all the kind messages about my reading and my outfit, and even the excerpt that I read!!!! You're all so lovely. I'm really glad that I made a blog here =)
Now that I'm free from school, I've started making professional social medias! I'm planning on posting all of my future writings, including pieces of CC, on there from now on. I'm gonna be renaming this blog back to 'chaosonwheels' since that's what I use for my more personal and fandom stuff, and then I'm gonna be making another one to be 'chaoticcliche' to exclusively post my writing and talk about writing endeavors. Once I feel consistently good, I wanna start doing 30 day challenges and get to know the blogger things so I can get to know y'all and you can get to know me!!
Anyway, I'll try to keep everyone updated on how I feel!! Love you!!
I got out two Saturdays ago, so I'm okay now, but I was in there for three days. Just an infection gone out of control super fast. I've been super exhausted since then and just really brain foggy, so it's been kinda hard to like.....be a person lol. I'm feeling really good right now though! So I wanted to say thank you for all the kind messages about my reading and my outfit, and even the excerpt that I read!!!! You're all so lovely. I'm really glad that I made a blog here =)
Now that I'm free from school, I've started making professional social medias! I'm planning on posting all of my future writings, including pieces of CC, on there from now on. I'm gonna be renaming this blog back to 'chaosonwheels' since that's what I use for my more personal and fandom stuff, and then I'm gonna be making another one to be 'chaoticcliche' to exclusively post my writing and talk about writing endeavors. Once I feel consistently good, I wanna start doing 30 day challenges and get to know the blogger things so I can get to know y'all and you can get to know me!!
Anyway, I'll try to keep everyone updated on how I feel!! Love you!!
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May. 4th, 2019 02:14 amso friends, I have news………
MY READING WENT SUPER GREAT AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! =D
A lot of people liked it!!! My professor said some people even wanted me to keep going after I stopped!!!
Also, yo, the dean of the Creative Writing department was there and he’s one of the few (if not only) professors that writes YA at the school, and I’ve had a class with him before, and he said he wants me to make an appointment with him this week to talk about CC 👀👀 It was super vague but I’m excited!!!!!!
ALSO MY CHERRY BROWNIES WERE A HIT YEET!!!!!! IT WAS A TOTAL WIN ALL AROUND!!!
Also also also!! I ended up not wearing my dress this time since it was a bit more of a casual event, so I just wore the lace shirt by itself and a casual black Lolita skirt!!
Selfie under the cut!
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MY READING WENT SUPER GREAT AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! =D
A lot of people liked it!!! My professor said some people even wanted me to keep going after I stopped!!!
Also, yo, the dean of the Creative Writing department was there and he’s one of the few (if not only) professors that writes YA at the school, and I’ve had a class with him before, and he said he wants me to make an appointment with him this week to talk about CC 👀👀 It was super vague but I’m excited!!!!!!
ALSO MY CHERRY BROWNIES WERE A HIT YEET!!!!!! IT WAS A TOTAL WIN ALL AROUND!!!
Also also also!! I ended up not wearing my dress this time since it was a bit more of a casual event, so I just wore the lace shirt by itself and a casual black Lolita skirt!!
Selfie under the cut!
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TODAY IS THE DAY
May. 2nd, 2019 02:44 pmIn a few hours, I'll be reading a bit from Cynical Chaos in front of an audience!! (And I'm dying from cramps so y'know that's fun lol)
Here's what I'm reading if any of you wanna follow along at home!
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Here's what I'm reading if any of you wanna follow along at home!
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Boooooooooooo
Apr. 13th, 2019 03:21 pmSo sad news. The coffee shop our professor was trying to set our reading up with refused, and he couldn't find anywhere else that would take us, so the public reading is cancelled =/ We're still gonna have like a casual reading at someone's house or something, but that's it. I'm pretty bummed.
At least I got another cute Lolita ensemble now tho!
How have you all been?
At least I got another cute Lolita ensemble now tho!
How have you all been?
I stayed up wayyy too late revising/rewriting this chapter for someone who has class in the morning, but I NEEDED to finish it. I really kinda love how the ending turned out and I wanted to share ^^
(obviously this is fresh off the press and it's 3am so please don't judge me for shit like grammar issues if you find any ^^;)
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(obviously this is fresh off the press and it's 3am so please don't judge me for shit like grammar issues if you find any ^^;)
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Apr. 7th, 2019 01:12 pmy'know.......even tho I lost that award, I still feel like there are good things on the horizon bookwise. Usually I internalize failures as being like a reflection on to my abilities, but I'm not feeling that way at all this time. Dare I say...growth???
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Apr. 2nd, 2019 07:24 pmI posted this on fandom ink too, but do y’all remember that time of fandom where people would post about how they got mono from a convention because people would just?????? kiss whoever asked????? My disabled ass could never. Keep your stranger germs away from me lmao
A little backstory first...
I've been writing and revising a YA Novel since I was 15. It's called "Cynical Chaos" and it is what I consider my life's work. I love it. I believe in it more than anything. We've been on the grind together for a decade--beta readers, revising, rejections, rinse repeat--and now that I'm graduating college, we're finally starting to see some progress!
Last weekend, I got to present my ideas and goals for the novel at my school's Graduate Symposium. And on May 2nd, the last day of my college career, my Capstone class decided that we wanted to celebrate by doing a public reading of our projects! Our professor is getting us a spot at the most popular coffee shop in town!
So anyway, the point of this post,
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I've been writing and revising a YA Novel since I was 15. It's called "Cynical Chaos" and it is what I consider my life's work. I love it. I believe in it more than anything. We've been on the grind together for a decade--beta readers, revising, rejections, rinse repeat--and now that I'm graduating college, we're finally starting to see some progress!
Last weekend, I got to present my ideas and goals for the novel at my school's Graduate Symposium. And on May 2nd, the last day of my college career, my Capstone class decided that we wanted to celebrate by doing a public reading of our projects! Our professor is getting us a spot at the most popular coffee shop in town!
So anyway, the point of this post,
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Mar. 13th, 2019 08:59 pmCool now literally the entire fediverse hates bts now that's cool I'm so glad stan twitter has to continue ruining my favorite things for me =)
It's not a good week for me fam lmao (at least it's not the instance I actually talk about my fandoms on)
It's not a good week for me fam lmao (at least it's not the instance I actually talk about my fandoms on)
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Mar. 12th, 2019 01:15 amWell it seems my nursing staff will not be the most pressing issue I deal with this week
